Insomnia for yesterday was really enough. I kept on waking up throughout the night, trying to comfort myself to sleep but failed. :/ The worst thing of all is when i got tired of thinking and start to sleep my bloody neighbour had to bang the door so fucking hard. I woke up with a shock by that loud unwanted noise. And my mind went wandering AGAIN. wtf.
Today was special because i made myself so busy. Ou during the day, jog during the evening, pool and yumcha during the night. Therefore, i smile the whole day. I was fucking happy. I'm showing you a BIG SMILE now. :DDDDDDDDDDD
But deep inside my heart I'm crying. I don't want the people around me to know or rather realize that I'm sad. Because i scare when they comfort me i will cry even more. I said i will learn to be strong, learn to be independent, learn not to rely so much on others. Because I'm a big girl and not a cry baby. :)
I'm sorry. But you just never know how do i actually felt that moment. I worry of so many things that you will never fucking know!
Work begins back tomorrow and I'm on morning shift. My results are coming out one of these days. I swear I'm fucking scare when it comes to the results. :( I should get some sleep now. My temperature is raising, fever kills, my throat hurts much. I sound like a frog now.
Goodbye !
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